Mother's Day...honouring the sadness

I have a lot to say about Mothers

I am one

and

I have five of my own

But

before I talk about that

I want

I believe

I need

 to honour The Sadness

that has been in my heart this past week

I am clear about the big picture

I am willing to let go

and in the silence of retreat

I heard the words

"it is okay to be sad...

your son has left home

and you are sad

honour that"

So today

this Mother's Day

I have honoured The Sadness I feel

I have not ignored it

I have not stuffed it down

I have not tucked it away

It is as I am

and we are one

I believe all women are Mothers

with or without children

they are Mothers

and being a Mother

comes with sadness

it is the way of this life

My son came over after work

to hug him

to look at him

to hear his voice

to have him sit next to me

is enough

I will miss knowing his is tucked in his bed  downstairs every night

and I will miss putting the puppy prince in his room every morning to wake him up

I will miss our impromptu singing sessions

and I will miss him lying in my bed when I am reading telling me what has been going on in his life

I will miss the day to day

with him

But

in the end

this is what is right

and

this is our right now

and

our right now is filled with love

our right now is built on 18 years

our right now

is enough

*

to all who understand sadness this day

walk with me

as we honour that

let us lift our hands high

as we let it go

let the Wind carry it away

and

let us thank it for being a part of our experience

let us see it as a reflection of our love

and then

let us hold fast to one another

standing tall

standing strong

for we are Mothers...

Love and Light