Holy Stillness

Last Friday I had the blessing of attending a day of stillness

at our local Monastery,

WestMinster Abby

given the week I had just walked through

it came at the most perfect time...

Do you believe that is coincidence?

I don't.

~I believe~ 

if we allow

if we believe

if we are intentional

if we create practice

if we spent time in ritual

if we dream

if we pray

if we ask

things will forever and always

be happening around us

that are for our greater good

this I believe

this I continue to experience

this is my daily

the day was beautiful

the grounds inviting

the Abby enchanting

the energy peace filled...

and as the deers welcomed us

(because of course their were deer waiting for the women to arrive)

I could feel myself exhale

"I am where I need to be"

were the words I said to myself

these are the reflections of that day...

"I have a simple philosophy:

Fill what is empty

Empty what is full

Scratch where it itches"

~Alice Roosevelt Longsworth

morning spirit card 

Cat:

"It is time to strike out on your won and relinquish your over dependency on others"

~it's so easy to slip into a comfortable dependency with anything or anyone

~to make truly autonomous decisions, don't get caught up in the polarities of being dependent or independent. Instead make your own choices form a place where you maintain your own authority and power, and accept 100% responsibility for those choices and their consequences.

journal reflections:

When my son left

something was opened inside my heart

a place was touched

a place I needed to venture on inside and take a look at

my yoga practice helped me go there

I did not know that it would

but fortunately for me

my teacher is a friend of the family

she loves my son as much as I

she knows us

we had a hug and a cry and then the others began to gather

have you ever been somewhere

listening to someone speak 

or experiencing something

and you are sure that that speaker was directly talking to you

or you feel the whole experience had been tailored to you

that is what that class what like

she opened up my right side through intentional movement

and exposed my deep sadness with in

this sadness was not just about my son

but this place was where I stored that

and similar types of sadness

and the core of that sadness was

rejection

in the stillness

I go there

I reflect

find out when it started

and now that I have acknowledged this

I am learning to be sad

I am learning to be sad

with out being mad

I am learning to be sad

and not be afraid of the vulnerability it brings

I am not afraid of exposing a weak spot

I will instead

find my strength in this weakness

God lives here

Attention All

Goddess is with you from the crack of Dawn

and in the stillness

I was given

an invitation to continue...

A day seemed not enough

and yet

A day was more than enough

This is the gift of being still

the fullness of this practice

I am

I am one

I am many

I am earth

I am sky

I am mountain

I am tree

All the things I worship

are a part of me

All that I honour

on the outside

Lives inside of me

using what we journaled that day
we wrote a French Pantoum...

this is mine:

I had not seen it's face...
as the sickness left me

 just be with me
*
I am learning to be sad
as the sickness leaves me

Wise one...I am learning to be sad

Soul Fire
Wise One

It just needs to be with me
creating
Soul Fire

I had not seen It's Face....
*


A Holy Stillness
what a gift
Is it a gift you give yourself?


Love and Light


(ps monasteries and temples are great places to find stillness. Their grounds are often open to the public to come and enjoy. You do not have to be part of their religious order or any order to do so....
Holy stillness is waiting there for you...)