We have been walking in the West
with Spider
She, a reflection of the webs
we tangle ourselves into
She, offering the release from such webs
and helping us produce
a new skin
As spider cocooned me I felt safe...
ironically in the surface life
I became sick
the sickness came hard
and depleted my energy
like the cocoon
at first I felt fine about slowing down
but soon
I found myself struggling with it
All the webs I tangle myself in
began to come to the surface
the difficulty to slow down
the fear of not running
the lack of self care
the unrealistic expectations I put upon myself...
as days turned into weeks
the struggle increased
no longer did I want to be cocooned
no longer did I want to be sick
but the more I struggled with it all
the longer it lingered
what I needed to do was sit in it
but it took me some time to come to that
realization
the surface things I was struggling with
were reflections the deeper things
I have been walking with this session in SouLodge
the webs I have woven for myself...
and the moment I released to that truth
the moment I stopped fighting the cocoon
the moment I released myself to what I was
facing deep within me
was the moment I felt the sickness leaving my body
suddenly the cocoon was again
the gentle place of transformation
it was meant to be
going to these spiritual places can be a challenge
and can even manifest itself in our physical self
healing can come when we face truth
when we go to those places that make us feel uncomfortable
I feel a rebirth happening within
a restoring
a releasing
and so I continue to rest in it all
letting go of the webs I think are my reality
believing there is more going on than I can see
knowing that I am being held in Abundant Love
knowing I am a part of a bigger purpose
knowing I am exactly where I need to be...
What are the webs you weave for yourself
my lovelies?
And are you able to be still in the Cocoons
that are lovingly made for you?
Love and Light
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