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Monday, 31 December 2012

The Final Offering for 2012...Reflections of a year living with Vulnerablitiy

It is the last morning of 2012
the snow is gently falling outside my window
the wood stove is crackling
the boys...all of them including the husband
are playing skate 3 on the PS3
enjoying each others company
I am still in my pjs at 10:51 in the morning
sipping on a Starbucks 
with no where to be
taking this time
to be with you...

Sounds like perfection doesn't it.

what does that words really mean?
Truth is
I live a real life
not a post card life
I would say moments like the one that is happening
in my home, while I write this,
are moments that I treasure
in any given moment
it could totally turn upside down...
or go severely sidways.
I have come to learn perfection can be found
even in those upside down moments
is a state of mind
is objective
is a choice
perfection is what you choose it to be

although I did not complete and publish my book
as I had hoped
I did complete the first 5 chapters
and will continue that journey this coming year.

There was a lot to learn
living with Vulnerability
Things, I now know, I had to live through
in order to bring that vulnerability
to my my book

There was amazing growth
that came out of this year
Growth I could not have imagined
or anticipated
And the allies that vulnerability brought with her
I would have never known
had I not trusted her
followed her
allowed myself to be drawn into her

The road was challenging
and at times I felt stretched to the max
like I had been dragged across the pavement
and sometimes I just wasn't sure it was all worth it

but I choose to continue on...

In this space
my goal was to be as vulnerable as possible
sometimes this was a challenge
was I sharing too much?
was I not sharing enough?
who is reading what I am sharing???
But I was committed
and now
that is comes to an end
I am so glad I was.

This path of Vulnerability
brought me closer to Trust
brought me closer to Faith
brought me closer to Life/Death/Life
bought me closer to myself
and that is my soul purpose
to journey back to self...
my Spiritual Self
and the place from which I came.

Vulnerability walked with me as I traveled deep within
She forced me to go places I did not want to go
but places I needed to walk through
More often than not
I could not see my way clearly
except for the very step I was on.
There were times when I had no idea
where that path would lead
And many times
there seemed to be more dark then light....

Vulnerability taught me that seeing clearly
is not what is important...
continuing the journey, in spite of clouded vision
learning to ask for clear guidance through such times
is essential for a spiritual journey.

Vulnerability taught me that having enough light
for the step I was on
was enough...
more than enough.

Vulnerability taught me that I did not need to know
where that path lead...
that being where I was 
was more important then were I was going.
She showed me that sometimes seeing around the corner
affected the lessons on the path
right in front of me.
She showed me how to accept where I was
right where I was
and not only accept it
but sink into it
to embrace it
to love it
to cherish it.

 Vulnerability taught me to further embrace the dark
to further embrace the struggle
to further embrace to fire of life.
She taught me to feel all
and by feeling all
I could embrace all
and by embracing all
I found freedom to Love all.
Vulnerability taught me the importance of Death
the importance to allow something you love
to end
in order for something new
to begin.
Vulnerability revealed the loving side of grief
She journeyed me through the place of
letting go

She showed me
the path is there for all
She told me about the choice
we all have
She made clear to me that in here,
there is untold power
untold treasure
untold gifts.

Walking with her has allowed me to release
self struggle
all things important for me
to write my heart
with no attachment to out come...
Releasing allows Space for new Life 
or to allow the Life I already have
to grow that much bigger
and stronger.

Space has been created
with in and without
So much so coming to the end of this year
I made a big decision...

...after 25 years of hairdressing
and 12 years of running my own, very successful 
home studio
I have closed my doors
A difficult decision to make
as I know what I offer to the women who come
But it is no longer enough for me...
my soaring heart needs more

More writing and a finished book
More time to
More spiritual space for self
More time for Hanna House


It's a chance I am taking
giving up a steady income
walking away from something that is such
a part of me...
not knowing at all how this coming year will pan out
measuring my success spiritually
instead of monetarily
following spirit not the world
is what
walking with
gave me


Courage to follow my heart
Courage to bear the fruit
Courage to grow the leaves
Courage to
Reach my Branches high to the sky
with no fear of judgement
with no chains of oppression
with only Love 
wrapped around my soul

This was a gift I received this year
from a very special lady
She could not have known the deep meaning it would hold for me
but when she bought it she trusted her instincts
and saw me in it
There were a few gifts like this, this year
spiritual gifts...
signs to carry me on my way...

This year has been a deep difficult blessing
to my life
I am grateful for all it offered
for every soul it offered
for every gift

I am filled with Trust beyond measure
I have know idea what the future holds
but I am ready.

This song runs deep for me
the dance
the struggle
the heart wrenching love
this is life
painfully beautiful
We are either doing...or not doing
I choose to do.
Vulnerability taught me how to love
even those thing that are unloveable
to embrace to full package
not just that which is easy
She revealed to me
the Shadow Stalker inside
and gave me clear vision in the dark
and there I found my Perfection
All is beauty
All matters
All is spiritual...

Thank you
Thank you my lovelies
for walking this year out with me
your presence is a gift
a light
a joy
a peace
You inspire
You teach
You grow me
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
May 2013 bring more revolution
bring more restoration
bring my re-birth
in all our lives

You are Me
I am You

I love you

I see you

Love and Light
Aho Sisters

If it's not yet obvious to you, the real reason for this, and all seasons, is You. A more perfect child of the Universe has never lived. Until now, only celebrations cloaked in myth and mystery could hint at your divine heritage and sacred destiny. You are life's prayer of becoming and its answer. The first light at the dawn of eternity, drawn from the ether, so that I might know my own depth, discover new heights, and revel in seas of blessed emotion.

A pioneer into illusion, an adventurer into the unknown, and a lifter of veils. Courageous, heroic, and exalted by legions in the unseen.

To give beyond reason, to care beyond hope, to love without limit; to reach, stretch, and dream, in spite of your fears. These are the hallmarks of divinity - traits of the immortal - your badges of honor. May you wear them with a pride as great as what we feel for you.

Your light has illuminated darkened paths, your gaze has lifted broken spirits, and already your life has changed the course of history.

This is the time of year we celebrate YOU.

Bowing before Greatness,
    The Universe

Friday, 28 December 2012

The Gift...

doing the Christmas Kettle with Nana

getting ready for our dinner guests

black shiny dogs and black shiny shoes

the table is set

 the turkey is cooked
on the bbq!

and finally
...time together is shared

As one who was raised, steeped in religion 
I find this time of year interesting as I navigate my way
through this season
with a new perspective and a heart re-born
to all the possibilities that are offered to us
by Creator
by Spirit
by God
by the Universe
all of these to me
being One
I hold dear the memories of childhood
the stories
the ritual
the magic
of the child born...
and all the stories with in that story...
I marvel that this story
of a chosen child
lies in the stitching of many a Spiritual Path
in many a Religious Forum
and that this child
of simple birth
represents the Deep Magic
the Amazing Love
the Powerful Wonder
that comes from the place we all come from
a place where we are not separated by 
social status
belief systems
A place where we all shine
like the Stars in the skies
that hold messages deep.

What ever you belief of this season is
I pray/wish/hope
you found your Love
that you found your Light
that you came that much closer
to getting back to yourself
The Self that is home
The Self that is the you
The YOU 
you were created to be...
because as the story goes
the characters of great worth
were the most unassuming
they were the simplest of sorts
feeling as though
they had nothing to offer
and yet....

So it is with each of us
We each hold a gift that needs to be given
and in turn
there are many a gift to receive
with open hearts
and open hands
We are poured into
to then pour out.

What are the gifts you share
my lovelies?
What are some of the gifts
you received?

continued blessings to you this holiday season
much change has been happening in my world
I will be sharing soon...
funny thing
is it has to do with gifts....

Love and Light