A Soul-full Journey...Day 19&20

 
Day 19

this morning I slept in

leading up to my moon 

I always feel more tired

and need more sleep

these are the days I am gentler

with myself

9:00am

Hatha Yoga

Hatha yoga is a gentle holistic practice

it includes disciplines

postures (asana)

purification procedures (shatkriya)

gestures (mudra)

breathing (pranayama)

and meditation

as a tool to bring balance

to the mind and body.

It represents opposing energies: 

hot and cold 

 male and female

 positive and negative

and takes one through the

birth

life

death

and re birth

process of ones cycle

It is one of my favorites.

Today it was gentle

just what I needed.  
*
Later

 I saw a bear

in my sister-friends yard

a young black bear

beautiful

shy

and curious

We had just been talking about spiritual protection...

He was a gift.

*

Today I came across two lost boys
one came to my door
he was canvassing for the Red Cross
I could not tell you if it was a scam or not
but he was the story I wanted to share
broken
lost
unsure
no direction
no grounding
all stemming from a life time
of neglect
How do I know this?
It oozed off of him
every cell of his body in confusion
every cell of his body screaming out
it was like I could hear his thoughts
I felt his heart
I knew his story
A wrinkle in time
and I stepped into his world.
He lingered with me long after
he was gone
I wished I would have said something
but in the moment
I was mute
soaking in the experience
and then
what would I have said
I do remember my mama love kicking in
surrounding him with it
saturating his being as best as I could
a lost boy
trying to find his way home....

the second came after a movie
Today was my little mans last day of grade 4
so off to the cheap movie theater we went
to veiw the new Iron Man
The lost boy was sitting out side of  a store
the residual affects of drug abuse evident
he was the age of my man-child...
maybe a couple years older 
he asked for change
I asked what for
he said he was hungry
"Can I buy you some food?"
I know it wasn't really what he wanted
but he conceded
and ask for a coke....
and a Klondike Bar
My little man and I went into the store
grabbing what he asked for
along with some other easy healthy items
My little man making the choices
asking the questions
feeling out the situation.
We handed him his bag of goods
I again wanted to say so much more
instead I spoke silently over him
" you matter
you are not nothing
your mother misses you"
Then I got back into my car

with my little man

talked about the lost boy

and I cried.

Lost Boys...

*

 Day 20

a day of connections

a day of "touching base"

12 noon

TRX

lunch after with my man-childs step mom

and a sister-friend

my home begins it's transformation into summer

 as do I

I have decided to embrace this summer

for all the adventure and revealing 

it has to offer

Summer has long been my least favorite season

I do not hate it

I just don't love it

My English/Irish heritage does not embrace

the deep heat

and hot emotions 

that come with Summer

But this year

this year I have deemed different

because I have a new found self

I look forward to what it brings....

like a 1 1/2 hour bike ride

in my "church"

shifting the restlessness of my approaching moon

and instead

moving my body

raising my heart rate

breathing in the earth

and all her beauty....

like long summer talks

with my husband

on the back deck

while my little man and his friend

play made up games in the yard...

and getting out little travel trailer

in running order

for some road trip adventures....

These are the things that feed

the Soul.

These are the things

that Summer offers

and I accept

with hands open

and heart full of gratitude

 *

What is Summer bringing you 

my lovelies?

Love and Light