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Sunday, 23 June 2013

A Soul-full Journey...Day 13,14,15

Day 13
Morning Meditation
"Connecting outside yourself"

 the entering of a new season
and the last day of 7 days of journeys with Eagle

this indeed is a new season
not just on the earth
but in my entire being 
as well.
I have a story to tell....
There once was a girl
she was born into a world of laws 
A world ruled by fear and condemnation
this world was full of disconnect
a world of confusion
a world of sadness
a world of constraint
But every so often
the sun would shine
or a spark would fly
the stars would twinkle
and a deep Love would wash over her
and when these things happened
it would give her strength to journey on
Often other views or thoughts 
would enter her sights
but she was told they were wrong
and every time she heard this said
another link was added to the chain
that hung around her neck
soon the chain be come heavy
so heavy she could barely keep her head up 
but she was told this was good
this was her burden to carry
"it ensures your humility"
she was told
"it keeps you the lowly creature
that you are"
and being young
she believed them....
 My last journey with Eagle
brought me face to face with my teacher
and friend
not the "religious" Jesus
the true Jesus
A man of humble beginnings
whose spirit transcended the human realm
who spoke to Creator
and acknowledge their relationship
A man who embodied Love and Acceptance
of all peoples
in a time of great prejudice. 
A voice for the people
in a time when they had no voice
because church and government
had stripped them of it
as a means to
controlled them.
The story of Jesus goes deep
far deeper than the bible stories
I was fed as a child
being brought up in a religiously soaked home.

Those religious chains still linger
even though I have left that world
it was not the place for me
But those chains are hard to break
it has taken many years
many roads
many wounds
many fears faced
to find my way back home...

But as always
I was reached out to
with in my last journey
I was running through the forest
Wolf running with me
and there he was 
standing in the path way
and as always
there is a multitude of teachers/prophets/spiritual leaders
that stand with and behind him
but today
I just see him
 He is very solemn and at first I feel like he is upset with me...not angry per say but not happy, and very serious. I am like a little girl around him....I can’t remember how the conversation started but I am concerned that he is angry with me about the work I am doing. The residue of the religious chains lingering heavy around my neck. 
He held my face in his hand and smiled, 
He let me know I am doing good, that he was proud of me...
I am a bit panicky, defending myself  and he keeps calming me down...
This part of me is what he is concerned about. 
He wants me to let the “worry about doing the right thing” go. Eventually I calm down and we sit on the forest floor together and talk...he leans over and says to me,
"don't tell the religious people this
but I am not religous!" 
and then he winks at me and laughs
he has such a rich sense of humour.
Of course I know this, but with the way I was raised it can be a challenge to separate the two...
The conversation is hard to put to human words, 
It was an amazing time...
we sit and talk for hours...
he guides and councels me
all the time filling me with his divine love...
He is so loving, so warm and comforting
 I can here Pixie calling us back 
as  it comes time to leave I do not want it to end.
I want to sit with him forever
in this place of total acceptance and love
that he offers.
As I lay on my couch I started crying uncontrollably...sobbing sobbing sobbing...
 I told Jesus I did not want to leave him
and I begin to cry.
 Jesus keeps saying to me
" I am with you, Catherine
 I am always with you"
...and I know that ...
but I really realized how much the chains I once carried
had hurt me
how difficult it has been to shed that religious skin...
to see Spirit
to see Creator
to see God with my own eyes
not through the eyes of a man-made religion.
I sit up
still crying
and I hear Pixie say if we need grounding
to get our bare feet on the earth....
 I walk out to my back yard to ground myself...
it is early here and the world is still.
 I weep....letting go of many things as I do
I grieve those I have lost because of those chains
I greive my own wounds
but I also cry in gratitude
for the Deep Magic
and the Great Love
that holds me
and cares for me
in a way that is beyond
any of my hopes or expectations
 And then God speaks
and tells me to look up at the trees...
our yard backs on to a green belt full of trees
 God says to me,
 "See the trees Catherine, so many different kinds...this is how I meant it for you too, so many different kinds of people, not all the same, not all believing the same, not all experiencing Me in the same way...your are living my intention.”

Today was a big day
a day of renewal for my soul..
I spent time with my girlfriend Angela
I did my  TRX&Yoga classes
I ended my fast with a organic chicken dog
with ALL the fixens!!!
(weird I know, but I was really craving one!!!!)
But nothing was as important as that journey

I want to let it be known
I do not disclaim any of the positive things
religion brings
I have also seen what a church community
can do for those it loves
and it is beautiful
and powerful.
I know that most of the
do-good-people and organizations of the world
start in church
or with church going people.
I am of the mind
that everyone finds their own place
with God
which is unique to their life
and their story.
For me
where I had been brought up
was not the place for me
I learned what I needed 
and then
I was called somewhere else.
I have lost things
because of this call
but I have also gained 
so much more.

  Day 14
Morning Meditation
"Set your Intentions"

a Gathering with my
Sisters of Light 
preparing for our gathering
This is our last gathering for our year
We re-convene after our fall retreat
which will be at the end of Sept.
today we set our visions
for the summer
visions that we hold up for one another
visions that set our intent
(one missing, having a weekend away with her hubby...tha'ts good medicine!)
this small tribe of women
are a very important part of my spiritual journey
they offer a place for me to come and BE
a place to lay my burdens down
a place to get insight and guidance
a place to celebrate success'
and grieve losses
They feed my spirit
and my soul
They are the faces of Goddess
and the vision of God
and for them
I am eternally grateful.

Day 15
(half way through my 30days of soulfullness)
Morning Meditation
"Taking a daily Supplement"

....taking time to check in here
...getting ready for my BFF to come over
with her family
for a wiener roast lunch
(yes a wiener roast my south hemosphere readers!!!)
and a walk around the lake
....dinner out tonight with two other couples 
at my favorite pub is a day for family and friends
and this my  lovelies
is also
an important part
of my spiritual practice

where ever you are
my lovelies
I pray that your chains be light
I pray that Divine Love pours over you
I pray you hear the whispers of Creator  
I pray you know 
that you are treasured 

Love and Light

ps Are you seeing how my daily meditations always coincide with what is going on????
 I love how that happens!


  1. Love this. I was once a girl ruled by laws too, nice to find a sister. I've been out in the woods alone for 5 days. I'm so craving some REAL food....your dog with all the fixings would hit the spot, but alas, all I have is veggies and fruit and a few eggs left until I leave tomorrow....AND THEN I WILL EAT ^_^. Great to hear you had a wonderful Solstice and are following your souls promptings...

    1. love that you took that kind of solitude time for yourself really strengths the heart connection when we do that
      thanks for stopping by
      many blessings

      love and light

  2. My son saw Jesus as he journeyed too and he had quite the emotional experience too.
    He said he saw angels singing to Jesus in the vision. It impacted him very deeply. I love to hear these stories, they bring God so close and so personal. My son wasn't raised with religion at all, only went to church maybe one time in his 23 years at Christmas and his reaction to seeing Jesus was much like yours. He wanted to stay with him. I'm so happy that you shared this hear. I got goosebumps when you told me and I got goosebumps again reading this time. So much meaning and depth and so personal, that's what I love the most. You heard exactly what your soul needed to hear, could there be anything more beautiful than that?? love you xoxo

    1. love that!
      it is very personal...the spiritual journey
      it becomes such a reflection of our true nature

      funny thing is often the messages that come are not even ones I was aware I needed!

      thanks for being here sister
      love and light

  3. Cat, this post inspires me deeply. Beautiful, raw, transparent and all your journey. Thankyou for sharing the sacred in the midst of it all. I love you. I thankyou. I honor your journey, and I love the freedom coming from doing the "work". MUAH!!


    1. thank you my friend
      i know you know this journey all too well
      you words encourage me
      as you honour my journey, so do I honour yours♥

      love and light my sister-friend

  4. amazing post.
    i needed to read that.

    [i can "do" jesus if i look at him as the man he was....and if i can picture him with a fox and a coyote at his sides....] [hope that didn't offend anyone, but YOU know where i am with this, cat....]


  5. no offense at all sister
    Jesus isn't offended either : )

    love you!


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