My own transformation...

Things are changing here

in this space,

have you felt it?

Since the summer

things have not been the same for me

not just here

but in many areas of my life.

Change is always inevitable.

Things are slowing down

though I have never had so many things on the go

as I do right now

a definite storm before the calm  

I won't go into what I am doing

it's not as important as the desire I have

to disconnect and pull away from this 

hustle and bustle world.

I know it has a lot to do with where I live.

An over populated metropolitan area

where suburbs now run into each other 

making the boundaries so blurded

we might as well call it all

Vancouver.

But I long for the stillness of my studio

where I can birth the stories

that sit on my chest

and digest in my stomach.

The ones that wait in my ribs

and are racing through my blood

while living in my cells.

It will come

but to all things there is a process

Transformation takes time...

As I write that I think of Butterfly

How even after she leaves her cocoon

fulling transformed

into her hew beautiful self

she sits and waits.

Before she sets off into her new life

she has to hang for a while

so her wings can inflate.

She then has to wait for them to dry

and harden.

This process can take up to 6 hours.

Could you imagine

you've been cocooned for months

during which time you have gone through

an amazing transmutation;

one in which you can now FLY!!!

But yet

you sit

you wait

you remain

until the time is just right.

I think that is where I am at.

Waiting for my wings to inflate...

and this cannot happen too quickly 

or I will be crippled

for life

it is a delicate process...

perfectly timed

by a Perfect Creator 

and so

in the best way I know how

I wait...

for what it is

that is meant to come.
*

What are you waiting for my lovelies?

Love and Light

Honouring Ebb and Flow in The Great Magic...a re-post

Life is a beautiful experience

a gift

full of wonder and magic

there was a time when

these words would not have been my own

I was unable to see past the darkness

that surrounded me

no longer is that so...

I believe in the ebb and flow

that Life offers

I believe that it is

  the Deep Essence of Life

you cannot have one

without the other

and when one is brave enough 

to willing embrace the darkness

the light shines even brighter

and the Deep Magic comes to life

that is The Gift

to those who venture deep...

The Ebb

In uncertainty I walk

the pushing

the pulling

taking it's toll

finding my voice

when lips have been stitched shut

not by Spirit

but by man

treated like a wound

that needs tending to

for fear of power and strength

that would come forth

slowly I cut the threads

I loosen the shackles

realizing I hold the key 

a time of darkness is here

I cannot see where this path leads

I call out

Where are you Spiritual Guides?

Where are you Lover of my Soul?

they answer...

"We are here

I AM

here

You must Trust

use that which you have been given

do not wait idly

all you need you have

within you

remember

and

believe"

And so I continue to walk

staff in hand

into a land unknown

it is barren and lonely

it would appear

nothing here grows 

I pour into it

only emptiness comes back

I lay my love down

and the cracked earth 

sucks it dry

the winds strain my roots

trying to force me down

it draws me in only to

spit me out

but I remain

warrior 

maiden

warrior mother

warrior crone

I will not be shaken

I will not be moved

I will not be afraid

*

The Flow

Within your Valley of Peace

I am held

cared for

loved

chosen

Songs fill the trees

As the Sun filters thru

Dancing leaves upon my page

as the breeze tickles the branches

Golden Light

Transparent Greens

Beauty beyond measure

A babbling brook

Life water it gives

not a care in the world

no worry

no strife

It continues

No beginning

No end

and yet 

sure of it's direction

A stillness is found

in such Valleys

the gift of peace

the gift of calm

the gift of knowing

The Deep Magic

is visible here

Felt by those

who choose to see

A Magic 

that we are all part of

A Magic deep within

each of us

That comes from the place

from which all things come

It rumbles beneath the Earth

It flies amongst the trees

It lingers in the wind

The beautiful Magic of Life

Here in the Valley

I find You 

Lover of my Soul...

Always You

*

Recently I read this quote

which sums up my thoughts beautifully...

"Life is magical, but it doesn't mean it is easy.

If life is too easy, you can't see the magic because ti is not necessary.

The magic comes when you have a brave soul

and are willing to explore deep within.

Magic is a reward for that."

~Seong Yoo Lee

(Buddhist Monk)

found here

I re-posted this because I loved it so much

when I re-read it

it was a year ago when I first posted it

and I love seeing the movement

and growth with in myself

since then...

A blessed weekend I bid you all

my lovelies

I retreat to the land of blessings

a time with family from out of town 

enjoying the local flavours

a time of hearts songs and laughter

What do you seek this weekend lovelies?

Love and Light

Trust...

Trust

in Trust

I still take action

in Trust

I understand that I am equipped

to make the right decisions

in Trust

I see God

in Trust

I know who I am

in Trust

I Love fully

in Trust

Spirit lends me Wisdom

in Trust

She opens doors

in Trust

I do not doubt myself

in Trust

I do not doubt God

in Trust

I know

She walks beside me

every step of the way

*

This has been a season for me...and continues to be so

as a mother

this has proven to be my most challenging time yet

I share with you what a sister 

took the time to send me

lighting my way

through this thick forest

she pulled 

the card of Trust for me...

it read:

Trust is having faith, hope and a positive outlook. 

Trust is believing in someone or something.  We have confidence that the right thing will come about without trying to control it or make it happen.  We trust others to do what they say they will do, and give them the space to be trustworthy.  Sometimes it is difficult to trust when life brings painful experiences.  Trust is being sure, in the depths of our being, that there is some gift or learning in everything that happens.  We move confidently with the flow of life, gathering strength from adversity.  We know we are never alone.

"Trust in the Lord and He will guide you aright.

One who has this trust need fear nothing. 

He can be in perfect peace and happiness

for he will be guided aright"

~Mahavagga 8:15:13 Hinduism

The Practice of Trust: 

I maintain my Hope

I do not nag other or try to control them

I believe there is some good in everything that happens

I allow trust to heal my fears

I am confident in my capacity for lifelong learning

I rely on Divine assistance

I am thankful for the gift of Trust

It renews my strength

What does Trust mean to you my lovelies?

Love and Light

pictures taken during my time alone

Summer Soulstice....

I am a little late in this post
but I wanted to honour the entry of Summer
and Summer Soulstice

A day for gratitude
A day for celebrating the Light
that is within us all.
A day to dance
A day to sing
A day to rejoice
*

I have to be honest
things have been unsettled here as of late
transition brings such thimes
and so
because of this
I was intentional about my gratitude
voicing it as I moved through my day...
*
a few thingsI was grateful for was:


~for the rocky road of Break Through
~the Challenge of growth
~for a beautiful back deck to journal and enjoy
a delicious cup of coffee while looking upon our 
beautiful back yard
~for the sun that shone as the rains have been plenty this month

~for my steadfast and faithful companion
oh how I love this creature
~for family-in all it's ups and downs-I am grateful for mine
~for Mother Natures Beauty in my back yard

~for the abundance I live in
both physically and spiritually
~for the understanding of that abundance

~for a beautiful card from a beautiful sister
...ah, yes, how I need those words right now...
grateful grateful grateful
and that was just in the morning of my day
*
Yesterday I did not dance
but I moved
and rocked
I stayed close to home
 just to be
*

On the back yard bench swing I started a new book
given to me by a friend
(gail you are gonna wanna check this one out!)
I love reading about others who live out their faith
who walk their talk
who live their truth and calling
so inspiring.
This woman
Corrie Ten Boom
lived a fascinating life
from a prison camp in germany
to "the world is your stage".
She went around, where she felt she was needed
and shared her Story, her Faith, her God
I am enjoying the book already
(thanks Sofia, will have it back to you soon)
Reading her story made me grateful,
made me rejoice in her light
gave me continued courage to shine my own light...
*
When others shine their light,
celebrate their spirit
it gives us the courage to do the same
and when we shine our light
and celebrate our spirit
we give those around us
the courage to do the same...
and so on.

It is a reflection of how intertwined
we really are
how connected and affected by one another
*
I celebrated the Light with in me
acknowledging how it saved my life...
and now
giving Gratitude in how
it IS my life


But my favourite things of this day came from one of you, 
my lovelies
in the form of a comment
that held a question
the comment was made on this post
it was made by
Janae
she wrote
"I wonder after your heart when I read this.
Out of curiosity,
are you speaking from your overflow of joy 
or in an effort to claim
that which you hope is true?"

(one of the "baby" robins
trying out his new wings)


I loved this question
questions allow me 
to speak
to offer
to be an active vessel
to fully fill my purpose


my answer


Truly
the words of that post
is what I know to be True
those words are a reflection of my Journey
I have discovered that "The Journey"
is not one of external
but one of internal
as we navigate through ourselves
unfolding our truth
scaling over conditioning
and sifting through cellular memories
because my belief is
The Journey
is not so much about journeying back to
Light
Heaven
God
Love
 Source
because these things are always with us
my belief is our Journey
is the one back to ourselves
back to the Soul of our existence
back to the core of our being
back to the perfect creation
we started out as.


The Creator knew what we would face
in our life time
so with Love
stitched all we would need
inside of ourselves
and because of 
The Great Love
The Creator gives us freedom to find those things
on our own
there are placed many helpers in our path
and Spirit walks freely with us
but the Journey is ours
the choice is ours
because 
The Great Love
is just that big.


*


As you enter your weekend
my hope is you ponder these words
pour them upon yourselves 
and
marinate in them
they come from a sacred place within myself
fuelled by The Spirit that walks with me
and thank you
to the lovely Janae
weaver of words
creator of imagery
Sister of the Deep
for following your heart and prompting my voice
you are a treasure.


Happy Weekend my Lovelies


Love and Light


(all images take on the morning of Summer Soulstice)