Ode to October...

You are my favorite time of year

it is not hard to love you at all.

This is my season

when life begins to fade

and with it comes the amazing beauty of change

and change did come

as it does...

starting with the official ending of a season 

we have been gathering for 3 years

and now the time had come to bring our circle and contract

to a close

bitter sweet

as it is with those things that we love

but as this is the season of death

so it is that all things have their own end

and so it is...

And as one door closed another door opened

as a new dream was birthed...

with two amazing lovelies

I call sisters and friends

ReWilding Retreats went live

and the response was tremendous...

more on this little nugget in a post to come.

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And then there is the time of Thanksgiving

which found me on a bus north bound to meet my love and my son...

Oh the lavish land that I live in

 magnificent wild mountain rages

plummeting into deep ancient rivers

and then comes the interior dessert

dry and cool

refreshing for the lungs to breath

and for the eyes to beyold
 

This month brought a re-awakening

of priorities and what really mattered

It brought truth 

Some truths are hard to take

and some the minute you hear them

you know them to be true

but even in the hard ones

there is something to be learned

something to grow from

something to live for

I held my last Shaenalach Retreat for the year

and the first one under the new name...

and it was splendid

a huge blessing!

I love the work I do

I am so blessed by the women who join me

they show such courage and willingness

such grace and compassion

it is an inspiration to me

to keep on this healing path for myself

and to keep providing this space for others
to do the same.

 And in the end

there was laughter

courtesy of 

a child that brings such joy to my life.

October

you were so full

everyday something new

something painful

something beautiful

thank you

thank you

thank you

How was October for you my lovelies?

Love and Light

Sisters of Light...a cutting of the strings

It was September 2011 when these lovelies came together for retreat

the first time...

and this space was founded

(more about that found here )

Sisters of Light 2014

 After that first coming together we gathered

every two weeks

for two years

forging a bond like none of us had ever experienced before.

But it was not to last.

 

During our annual retreat last year

there was a shift made

as one sister felt herself pulled in another direction...

in turn

the decision was made to no longer meet as we once had.

 

Instead 

we met now and again as individuals

and had brunch as a group

a few times throughout the year...

 

A month ago

we came together to retreat

once more

 

I was not prepared for the shift

not prepared for the distance I felt

with some of the sisters.

Looking back I can see it was my own naivety

and my own

"seeing the world through rose coloured glasses".

 

enjoying the forest

I had expected it would be

as it once was

but instead

things had shifted and changed.

having a little fun

Within those expectations

I had set myself up...

lesson learned.

 

Just like the seasons change

Just as the earth evolves

Even I ebb and flow with in my life...

 

even the trees bow in our presence ; )

...so do sisterhoods 

Nothing remains the same.

This was a challenge for me to face

 

one I needed to face none the less...

When we ceased to gather last year

we never closed or released 

the contract we had made with one another

and this retreat was to do just that

clearly

the time had come.

The contract had been honoured

and it was time for each of us to be released

from its sacred word...
allowing eahc of us
to move deeper into our Light.

 

 and so it was

 With our contract fulfilled

that which bound us was disolved...

We marked this with a ritual...

each of us cutting a string we had tied together at the beginning of the weekend 

our fearless guides

another powerful moment shared

 

Sisters of Light

Letting go is not always easy

And for a sensitive heart like mine

it takes me a while to process.

But

what I know to be true

is that in the letting go

I allow

I allow something else to come

perhaps something that will encourage me

on the road I am on

perhaps something that  assist me

in where it is I am going...

 

our mystery spirit dog

Whatever comes

I am grateful for what was

What I learned and how I grew with these women

was more than I could have ever imagined on my own

They helped shape and mold me

to who I am at this moment.

We will always be The Sisters of Light

as we have traveled many lives together.

We are now something different

from what we once were in this life.

This is not the end

but a new beginning...

What dear thing to your heart have you had to let go of recently lovely?

Love and Light

Things that make me cry...

some...in the most beautiful kind of way

like

packages from  dear friends over seas...

the joy of "feeling the love" can bring tears.
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The pain of getting the news
that another dear sister-friend

 
is walking with cancer
...again...
this too brings tears...
beautiful tears of love, hope, warriorism and community.

Living in the ebb and flow...

Love and Light