Deeper and Wider

Yesterday the snows fell

as if to blanket me deeper

into the still silence

of this space I am in...

just the day before I was capturing

these images

Snow Geese

in the wet lands

that sprawl out behind my home

underneath the watchful eyes

 of the mighty mountain range...

These beautiful birds

Grace us with their presence

this time of year

a symbol of the season...

And I can't help but ask

what season is this?

There is tribulation in the world

and there is tribulation in my home...

things are shifting at a rapid rate

...so it seems...

the ebb and flow

tangibly felt

and I trying not to get

swept away in it

not to be carried into emotions 

with no direction

I have been intentional about 

creating space around me

Holding space for myself

something I easily and quickly do for others

but have never done

with such intent

for myself

The same day I was with

The Snow Geese

I saw these two eagles

They are always such a gift

They are such a reminder to me

to see above and beyond

what is in front of me

to look further than the obvious...

So as the world morns the losses,

not only those who lives were taken

at last weeks shooting

but also the lives that are continually taken

in countries where humans rights

are not considered,

and as I walk through my own

personal place of uncertainty

I take guidance from Eagle

To be lifted up 

to  look beyond my own understanding

to trust

to believe

to be ever present

and even as I enter the season of Christmas

with such an unsettled feeling

pressing upon my being

I can and will hold space

not only for others

but for self

And by holding that space

around me

I allow Spirit a place to be

with me

to carry me

to lift me up

to hold fast to truths

beyond the human eye...

and though there is much

I am unsure of

there are things I am

very sure of

(my still unfinished work of art.....15 hours and counting)

as sure as the very snowflakes

I carry on my body

so am I sure of the life

the springs up after such times...

this I know to be true
That in this discomfort of the season
beauty arises
the knowing that I have nothing to prove to anyone
and that I am responsible for my own heart

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and so it would be 

during this time of "unknowing"

that my man child would return home

He has been gone for 2 months now

on his own adventure "down under"

He came home

a little earlier than expected

but his heart longed to be back

in the familiar

in the consistence

of a life well laid...

As we drove home in the 

early morning hours

He spoke of his adventures

especially the spiritual connection

he shared with the ocean

as he surfed her waves

in the dawn of each day

He spoke of the connection

the becoming one

with her wild yet familiar way...

It did my mama heart good

to hear these things from his mouth

for it is what I wish for my boys

they would find their Spiritual Connection

to earth

to life

to themselves

To find God

in a way they can recognize...

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Life can not always be comfortable

Life can not always offer bliss

I am reminded of that

at a time like this

Even though it would seem the "perfect time"

to have all of that

Life has so much more to offer

It offers something

Deeper and Wider...

*

To bless this Space between Us

with John O'Donohue

No one know the wonder

Your child awoke in you

Your heart a perfect cradle

To hold it's presence

Inside and Outside became one

As new waves of Love

Kept surprising your Soul

Now you sit bereft

Inside a nightmare

Your eyes numbed 

By the sight of a grave

No parent should ever see

You will wear this absence

Like a secret locket

Always wondering why

Such a new Soul

Was taken home so soon

Let the silent tears flow

And when your eyes clear

Perhaps you will glimpse

How your eternal child

Has become the unseen angel

Who parents your heart

And persuades the Moon

To send new gifts ashore.

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Today

and for the days to come 

I hold on to Eagle Eye

and remain in this space

of intention...

to become Deeper

to become Wider.

Where are you at my lovelies?

Love and Light

ps I had the joy of going to The Hobbit
with the youngest boy, last Friday, with his reading group
stunning and captivating!