This week has been deep , churning, awakening.
Between the Grief WalkingWorkshop
I attended at the beginning of the week
and the soul-work in SouLodge
I have been flying in the heavens
and walking through the underworld.
I wanted to put to words my week
but seem to be struggling
so I will keep it simple...
This week in SouLodge the big question was
WHAT MASKS ARE YOU WEARING?
I pondered this question for a couple days...
Sometimes there is a mask of being
in a better place
than I am
Sometimes there is the mask of
down playing my light, my joy...
I make myself smaller...
And then there are times when I put on a mask
just for the comfort of it
sometimes I want a break from
Sometimes I just want to blend in...
none of these mask are worn for long...
but they exist
they are real.
there was something else
Something else came up...
and it is not the first time
often comes up when I am doing soul-work...
when I am "going in"
I think to myself
"What if I am not as wonderful as I think?
So I journeyed in
I journeyed deep with Raccoon
Panther, Owl, Bear and Wolf
I journeyed for three days inside
forest, underworld and jungle
to find my answers as to
How these masks came to be?
What would happen if I took them off?
What help do I need to enlist?
the masks are there sometimes for survival
and as soon as I take them off
the light shines
the Light Shines so Bright
and all that Light reflects in my life
which to me says
The Help came in the form of a butterfly...
a symbol of change, joy and colour
a symbol of the Soul
Butterflies remind us that life is a dance
not to take things quite so seriously
they remind us to get up and Dance!
THAT I can do...
remembering the joy that is my life!
Growth and Transformation do not have to be
it can occur gently, sweetly.
One more thing I want to share...
When I was walking in my underworld...
the darkest place with in myself
it was dark,
other than the lava rivers and lakes that were all around
there was a slight smell of sulphur
and it was very very warm
not unbearably hot,
but definitely warm
The earth below my feet was dark and rich
and soft to the step
when I was there
I could feel the physical burning sensation
within my body
making me feel that I needed to treat this area
with a healing balm of some sort
but it would not let me
that this place of heat and darkness
is an important part of who I am
there is no need to fix it...
not even heal it
it is a part of me that nourishes my soul
(remember the rich soil?)
it keeps the heat of passion going
and it even offers a place of refuge
when the world turns cold...
I share this with you
because sometimes there can be a fear of going inside
the fear of looking at our masks
and our dark places
maybe my experience might give you
a shifted perspective
make you feel less afraid
of those darker parts of your heart
maybe it will give you the courage
to ask you the questions I asked myself this week
what masks are you wearing?
why do you wear them?
and what would happen if you stopped?
you are as wonderful as you think
have a beautiful weekend
Love and Light
This post is dedicated to
of the Lakota Sioux Nation.
Russell entered his canoe
to travel to the village of his ancestors on Monday
this world grieves a great man...
~your spirit remains with us
and those to come
thank you for the gift of
Freedom to take responsibility"