Music Monday....a dedication

 "Take It On Faith"

There’s only one road
In and out of my heart
I don’t know where it ends
And where it starts
But the night is young
Younger than we
So lets burn right and wrong
I’ll forgive you
And you’ll forgive me
Take it on faith
That I’ll be there
When the pain comes
And I’ll take it all on faith
That you will try, try not to run
When it’s hard, so hard
I can be on fire
Yah I can hold my own
But inside I’m just a girl
Who’s scared to be alone
Today was hard
But tomorrow’s new
And if you’re there for me
I’ll be there for you
Yes I will see us through
And I’m taking it on faith
That I’ll be there when the pain comes
And I’ll take it on faith
That you will try, try not to run
When its hard, so hard
I’ll take it on faith that you’ll be there
When the pain comes
I’ll take it all on faith
That you will try, try not to run
Take it on faith
Take it on faith
Take it on faith
Take it on faith
Take it on faith
Take it on faith
When it’s hard
so hard

*

This post is dedicated to my dear sister-friend

Angela

as she lives each day

the best she can

with courage

and eloquence

beyond measure...

as cancer walks with her

in the shadows.

I love you my friend!

you can find her latest post here

What are you grateful for today 
my lovelies?

Love and Light

Faith...

Faith

Faith is like the shimmering threads

of the spider's web

Delicate

Seamless

Fragile

all the while holding

Hidden Strength

A Fine Line

barely visible in some Light

And completely invisible in others

It holds together 

the entire world of the spider

All that matters

All the gives Life

All that holds Purpose

is found

in those fine threads...

Faith

is like that.

I have heard talk of Blind Faith

this is something I know naught of

for my Faith has been Birthed

out of Life's Journey

Experiences

Encounters

Exchanges

Tangible

Real

Breathing

My body

My heart

My mind

hold the healed scars, 

the hidden marks, 

the faded memories

of the time

Faith made herself known

And She did not come Alone

*

Faith brought along with Her

Healing

for the deep wounds of my heart

Hope

to keep my body strong and sure

and Trust...

Trust came to ease my mind

To help Clarity find it's way

Each make Her who she is

And She is found in each of them

Faith has given me a place

to go

when my light seems dimmed

Faith gives me memories

of Spiritual Intervention and Encounter

glimpses of Divine Truth

reminders of the Power of Source

*

Faith reveals to me

The face of God

and the diversity that lies there in...

Faith has proven to be a friend

I can count on

Though delicate and sometimes hard to see

She remains

She holds within Her

my world

all that matters

all the gives Life

all that holds purpose

all that is me

My Faith is not blind

She lives with Eyes Wide Open

Awake and Engaged

Aware of All around Her

My Faith Lives

My Lovelies,

what does your Faith look like?

Love and Light

(all images taken on our last family adventure to the past

it's the last week of summer break here...will see you soon)

Simple Prayers...

God

Grant me the Serenity

to accept the things I can not change

The Courage 

to change the things that I can

and

The Wisdom

to know the difference

Love and Light
my Lovelies

Confessions of the Deep...(Keeping it Real)

Ashamed and Discussed !
*
this is what I told my husband yesterday morning

through tears

I told him that I was 

Ashamed and Discussed

with my body...
I know
pretty heavy
(no pun intended lol)
since my Sister of Light Retreat
last Sept. 
I have put my focus on my spiritual growth.
there has been no triathlons, no 1/2 marathons
no organized activity.
I have still been running and doing my daily thing
but with no focused training
I have put on a few pounds...
which has secretly bothered me...
thus the freak out yesterday morning...
well kinda
 really
honestly
my body
the extra pounds
wasn't the deep reason for my feeling
of such distraught
it just seems to be the place I go
when things weigh on me....
there is that reference again
coincidence?

yes
I am not loving the extra "belly jelly"
but that can be handled
and will...
at some point
and I am more than my body,
but what was really beyond that
was a young man
who woke me up at 1:30am

the one who was three sheets to the wind
yup
a few too many
the one who
as soon as I opened the door
asked me if I loved him
asked me if I though he was a fuck up
confided in me how afraid he was about this next stage
how he had no idea what he was doing
how he himself felt he was a fuck up
the one who held on to me for dear life
needing his mothers assurance

and as my boy cried at the kitchen table
apologizing over and over
telling me to go back to bed...
I made him a bagel
listen to his slurred words
felt his pain
felt his fears
felt his uncertainty
I felt his loss
as he spoke of his Dida who past away suddenly
a few months ago
I felt his truth
felt his heart
felt his soul

the "freak out" was a reflection of me trying to sort
through all that had transpired
thank God for an understanding husband
though my feeling about my body has some truth
there were bigger things at play
Do you do this?
Do you sometimes deflect what really is the challenge
with those smaller challenges that are closer to the surface?
*
I had a good cry in my husbands arms
the mother in me felt the sadness
I needed to find the silent warrior within...

and as always is
a blessing awaited
in which again I could find my footing


a photo shoot
taking place in my "church"
*these photos I post today
were part of the shoot


even as I drove to the location
I was uneasy, 
unsure of my ability even
but as I got closer
as Mother Earth opened up to me
and invited me in
with her open arms
I felt my legs firm
I felt my roots go deep
I shook my branches
and remembered

the Yin and Yang of all experiences.

I felt the ribbons loosen within me
felt my worries fall away
this is life
and as unsure as I am at times
I am the perfect mother for my man-child
we were perfectly matched
he has what I need
and I have what he needs
yes I could have been angry about the drinking
but again
that is the surface thing
easy to address
easy to be distracted by
but again
I choose to go deeper
really hear him
really see him

the day unraveled
and became lighter as it went on
there was chance to talk further
and a chance to give loving support....
*
and today
well today is a glorious day
filled with blessing and possibility
when I am done here 
I will pack an overnight bag
as I meet up with my Moon Sisters
for some time in a cottage
by the ocean
the sun is shining
my children are happy
my husband content
*
Whats the point of sharing all this?
well
as I told a friend this week
we have choices
we have choices about how we see things
that there is no such thing as a dead end...
there is always a way out
that each moment brings with it
a new reality
that pain, sadness, and emotions in general
are a part of this human experience
but they can't stop the Light from shining in
even for a moment

the Ebb and Flow
are constantly around us
ever consistent
ever faithful
we can take comfort in that
*
So back to my question

Do you do this?

Do you sometimes deflect what really is the challenge

with those smaller challenges that are closer to the surface?

I would really like to know

if this resonates with you

or if I am alone on this.

*Thank you my Lovelies*

happy weekend to you all

Love and Light

(Monica has stopped "Keeping it Real" for the summer, 
but I still felt the desire
 to honour the Ebb and Flow Life)

inside out...

there are many sides 
to every story 
each
 filtered 

through  personal realities
what was important 
what hurt 
what brought joy
what awoke sadness
what touched those deep secret places
one side of the gate looks different
then the other
each side as pleasing as the other
 some long to be on the inside of the gate
while others fit better on the outside
to every rule there is 
an exception
all things laid in stone
can and probably will be
chiseled  away
torn down
or blown apart
at one point or another
everything moves
nothing stays the same
*

I don't believe in One Way
I believe in many ways
that lead to One place
Life
is filled with
 variables
options
alternatives
and no one knows more than the other
we all stumble through life
longing to feel whole
seeking to belong
hoping to find "home"
and each path we choose
is personal to our life experience
each decision made 
based on what lives in our hearts

each path unique to those who walk it
this is the gift of Love
in this thought
Grace lives
and thrives
when I see all the diversity in Mother Earth
I know diversity to be a truth
when I think of the variety of roads I have traveled
to get where I am in this moment
I know variety to be a truth 
and when I stop and think of 
every breath
every tear
every smile
every laugh
I know we have barely scratched the surface
of the vastness
of the
Source
from which we come

no snow flake the same
yet nothing new under heaven
no light without darkness
and it is in the darkness 
we find our light
life out of ashes
and beauty in death


I don't believe in One Way
I believe in many ways 
to 
One 
place
a place where
we all shine


Love and Light