Honouring Ebb and Flow in The Great Magic...a re-post

Life is a beautiful experience

a gift

full of wonder and magic

there was a time when

these words would not have been my own

I was unable to see past the darkness

that surrounded me

no longer is that so...

I believe in the ebb and flow

that Life offers

I believe that it is

  the Deep Essence of Life

you cannot have one

without the other

and when one is brave enough 

to willing embrace the darkness

the light shines even brighter

and the Deep Magic comes to life

that is The Gift

to those who venture deep...

The Ebb

In uncertainty I walk

the pushing

the pulling

taking it's toll

finding my voice

when lips have been stitched shut

not by Spirit

but by man

treated like a wound

that needs tending to

for fear of power and strength

that would come forth

slowly I cut the threads

I loosen the shackles

realizing I hold the key 

a time of darkness is here

I cannot see where this path leads

I call out

Where are you Spiritual Guides?

Where are you Lover of my Soul?

they answer...

"We are here

I AM

here

You must Trust

use that which you have been given

do not wait idly

all you need you have

within you

remember

and

believe"

And so I continue to walk

staff in hand

into a land unknown

it is barren and lonely

it would appear

nothing here grows 

I pour into it

only emptiness comes back

I lay my love down

and the cracked earth 

sucks it dry

the winds strain my roots

trying to force me down

it draws me in only to

spit me out

but I remain

warrior 

maiden

warrior mother

warrior crone

I will not be shaken

I will not be moved

I will not be afraid

*

The Flow

Within your Valley of Peace

I am held

cared for

loved

chosen

Songs fill the trees

As the Sun filters thru

Dancing leaves upon my page

as the breeze tickles the branches

Golden Light

Transparent Greens

Beauty beyond measure

A babbling brook

Life water it gives

not a care in the world

no worry

no strife

It continues

No beginning

No end

and yet 

sure of it's direction

A stillness is found

in such Valleys

the gift of peace

the gift of calm

the gift of knowing

The Deep Magic

is visible here

Felt by those

who choose to see

A Magic 

that we are all part of

A Magic deep within

each of us

That comes from the place

from which all things come

It rumbles beneath the Earth

It flies amongst the trees

It lingers in the wind

The beautiful Magic of Life

Here in the Valley

I find You 

Lover of my Soul...

Always You

*

Recently I read this quote

which sums up my thoughts beautifully...

"Life is magical, but it doesn't mean it is easy.

If life is too easy, you can't see the magic because ti is not necessary.

The magic comes when you have a brave soul

and are willing to explore deep within.

Magic is a reward for that."

~Seong Yoo Lee

(Buddhist Monk)

found here

I re-posted this because I loved it so much

when I re-read it

it was a year ago when I first posted it

and I love seeing the movement

and growth with in myself

since then...

A blessed weekend I bid you all

my lovelies

I retreat to the land of blessings

a time with family from out of town 

enjoying the local flavours

a time of hearts songs and laughter

What do you seek this weekend lovelies?

Love and Light

Confessions of the Deep...(Keeping it Real)

Ashamed and Discussed !
*
this is what I told my husband yesterday morning

through tears

I told him that I was 

Ashamed and Discussed

with my body...
I know
pretty heavy
(no pun intended lol)
since my Sister of Light Retreat
last Sept. 
I have put my focus on my spiritual growth.
there has been no triathlons, no 1/2 marathons
no organized activity.
I have still been running and doing my daily thing
but with no focused training
I have put on a few pounds...
which has secretly bothered me...
thus the freak out yesterday morning...
well kinda
 really
honestly
my body
the extra pounds
wasn't the deep reason for my feeling
of such distraught
it just seems to be the place I go
when things weigh on me....
there is that reference again
coincidence?

yes
I am not loving the extra "belly jelly"
but that can be handled
and will...
at some point
and I am more than my body,
but what was really beyond that
was a young man
who woke me up at 1:30am

the one who was three sheets to the wind
yup
a few too many
the one who
as soon as I opened the door
asked me if I loved him
asked me if I though he was a fuck up
confided in me how afraid he was about this next stage
how he had no idea what he was doing
how he himself felt he was a fuck up
the one who held on to me for dear life
needing his mothers assurance

and as my boy cried at the kitchen table
apologizing over and over
telling me to go back to bed...
I made him a bagel
listen to his slurred words
felt his pain
felt his fears
felt his uncertainty
I felt his loss
as he spoke of his Dida who past away suddenly
a few months ago
I felt his truth
felt his heart
felt his soul

the "freak out" was a reflection of me trying to sort
through all that had transpired
thank God for an understanding husband
though my feeling about my body has some truth
there were bigger things at play
Do you do this?
Do you sometimes deflect what really is the challenge
with those smaller challenges that are closer to the surface?
*
I had a good cry in my husbands arms
the mother in me felt the sadness
I needed to find the silent warrior within...

and as always is
a blessing awaited
in which again I could find my footing


a photo shoot
taking place in my "church"
*these photos I post today
were part of the shoot


even as I drove to the location
I was uneasy, 
unsure of my ability even
but as I got closer
as Mother Earth opened up to me
and invited me in
with her open arms
I felt my legs firm
I felt my roots go deep
I shook my branches
and remembered

the Yin and Yang of all experiences.

I felt the ribbons loosen within me
felt my worries fall away
this is life
and as unsure as I am at times
I am the perfect mother for my man-child
we were perfectly matched
he has what I need
and I have what he needs
yes I could have been angry about the drinking
but again
that is the surface thing
easy to address
easy to be distracted by
but again
I choose to go deeper
really hear him
really see him

the day unraveled
and became lighter as it went on
there was chance to talk further
and a chance to give loving support....
*
and today
well today is a glorious day
filled with blessing and possibility
when I am done here 
I will pack an overnight bag
as I meet up with my Moon Sisters
for some time in a cottage
by the ocean
the sun is shining
my children are happy
my husband content
*
Whats the point of sharing all this?
well
as I told a friend this week
we have choices
we have choices about how we see things
that there is no such thing as a dead end...
there is always a way out
that each moment brings with it
a new reality
that pain, sadness, and emotions in general
are a part of this human experience
but they can't stop the Light from shining in
even for a moment

the Ebb and Flow
are constantly around us
ever consistent
ever faithful
we can take comfort in that
*
So back to my question

Do you do this?

Do you sometimes deflect what really is the challenge

with those smaller challenges that are closer to the surface?

I would really like to know

if this resonates with you

or if I am alone on this.

*Thank you my Lovelies*

happy weekend to you all

Love and Light

(Monica has stopped "Keeping it Real" for the summer, 
but I still felt the desire
 to honour the Ebb and Flow Life)

Keeping it Real...

Keeping it Real with the lovely

Monica over at Ink and Chai

Every Friday 

Monica invites her readers to

"Share your own ups-downs, lows-highs, hits-misses, dark-light,
peaks-valleys, plus-minuses,
as we keep the blogosphere real."

The Ebb and The Flow

this past week these two entities have intertwined

such a thin delicate thread separated them

it was difficult to tell them apart

*

a week of commune as friends stayed with us

as there new home underwent renovations

they brought the pitter patter of little feet

 a little girl voice

sweet smiles and shy looks

and I was reminded, once again,

 of how 

though I love the solitude

I equally love and embrace a full house

a reminder of a life gone by

a childhood home full of noise and activity

an open door where visitors and lodgers where welcome
were ebb and flow lived out loud

*

a day with a soul sister did my heart good

speaking of deep things

life and death

communications with God

hopes & dreams

laughter & tears

personal reflections

wine down by the river

a visit to a most peculiar village

(more images found here)

and the freedom to express with no thought of judgment
as the ebb and flow danced in the grass
and sparkled in the sun

*

bear cubs in the trees
there has been a mama living in the ravine with her 3 cubs
for the most part they have kept
to themselves
but as the cubs grew
so did their perimeter
so when they all found themselves
trapped up a tree
by a busy road side
precautions had to be taken
for the wild and civilization
have their own unique version
of ebb and flow...
a delicate dance
between the two
(they were tranquilized and moved to a safer location in the mountians)
*
more work was done on my tattoo
(before)

(after)
colour and snowflakes 
will be put in  sometime in August
it was another 3 hours of being under the needle
this was a moving session
I went into a deep meditative state
this tattoo is changing me
growing me
I am unable to put to words
at this time
what it all means to me...
the ebb takes me
as the flow leads the way
*

I have found myself in a deep place of spiritual reflections
a deep contentment in the path I am on
Gods hands unfolding truths within
as I watch in wonderment
embracing this time of break
break from school
break from the norm
break from schedule
this is quiet now in this space
as I enjoy the month to come

we are parking our little travel trailer
for the month
by a creek in the forest 
right off the beaten path
we will be commuting back and forth
working
while we enjoy the presence of summer
I look forward to this time with my youngest
and letting the summer sun warm my bones
and freckle my body
*
something awaits me there
I am not sure what
perhaps the completion of my book
perhaps the birth of something new
perhaps more unveiling of my life purpose
whatever it is
the flow carries me
and I feel a deep peace
within
*
I end with this quote
posted by a dear soul
and sister-friend
Amy


"Come, come, whoever you are. 
Wanderer, worshipper, lover of living, it doesn’t matter 
Ours is not a caravan of despair. 
Come even if you have broken your vow a thousand times, 
Come, yet again, come, come."

 ~ Rumi and His Sufi Path of Love

Indeed
"Ours is not a caravan of despair"
Ours, 
my Lovelies,
is the caravan of Life






Love and Light 


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