Its almost time...

How are things for you my lovelies?

Blessings

Love and light

Things that make me cry...

some...in the most beautiful kind of way

like

packages from  dear friends over seas...

the joy of "feeling the love" can bring tears.
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The pain of getting the news
that another dear sister-friend

 
is walking with cancer
...again...
this too brings tears...
beautiful tears of love, hope, warriorism and community.

Living in the ebb and flow...

Love and Light

Dreams...

Recently I had a conversation
with a dear sister about broken dreams.
Those that had been lost,
the ones that had not come true
and the pain and grief that comes with
this sort of thing.
 

She was sharing with me her own pain

from a dream that she had worked hard for

but it did not turn out as she had hoped/planned.

This happened many years ago

but the residue of disappointment

was still lingering

and she had found herself 

again 

walking through the grief and resentment

of this dream...THE DREAM

 not taking shape

as she had planned.

As she spoke to me

I could feel her emotions

as if they were mine.

And I listened intently

not only to her

but to the Light voice 

that was pouring into me.

I had a message to give her

not right then

for she needed to talk

she needed to be heard

she needed to unload.

A few days later we saw each other again

and I had the opportunity

to share with her the message I had been given.

And not only was I able to pass it on

she was open to receive it.

(This is always such a blessing!)

The message was

that it had been A DREAM

not THE DREAM

that is all.

All had not been a waste

all had not been lost

there was purpose it what had happened....

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This whole exchange

and her story

brought me to a place of reflection.

I brought myself to my own place

of broken and dead dreams

and I found again and again

the common actions of surrender...

and letting go.

Moving past my own ego

of how I thought it should be

and finding place of Trust.

Trusting the Powers that rules my fate.

Trusting a Bigger Picture that I am unable to see.

Believing that all things work for the Higher Good. 

These were the tools I used/use to walk through

the grief and disappointment.

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Granted

I know some dreams are harder to let go of

than others,

and this is something we all face

during our lives.

None of us walk with out the scars of disappointment.

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I thought about 

THE DREAM.

 

What if there is not just one dream?

 

The Spiritual realm, 

compared to the limited

physical realm,

offers so much more in way of possibilities.

In our fleshy selves

we are limited to all that we are attached to.

But Spiritually, the possibilities are endless,

as vast as the Universe Herself.

So in that context:

 

What if there is not just ONE DREAM

that fulfills our purpose here?

What if it is many different dreams...

some that come to full bloom,

along with those whose buds don't quite open?

And it is in these successes and failures

our very purpose is found.

What if Spiritually

we are not limited to ONE

but lent to many?

 

What do you think
my lovelies?
One dream or many?
Are the dreams that die as important
as the dreams that flourish?
Share with me your thoughts...

Love and Light

45!

 The Event...

my 45th birthday

held at my favourite little neighbourhood pub...

my farthest traveler...coming to the burbs from the big city
my Moon Sister representing!

my closest guest...living right around the corner from the pub
bet you can guess who stayed till the end...lol

 It was a Monday night

so I did not expect a huge turn out...

I was pleasantly surprised.

My "other daughter"

My Light Sisters...love these women!
oh and Mitch...lol

photo bomber alert!!!

good times with great friends

our spectacular waitress Stephanie...nothing like a night out with a group and getting the BEST service EVER!!!!

my lovely friend and step mom to my son...she's one special lady!

 The last three standing...

along with me

This is what 45 looks like in my world

not so bad!

the next morning was spent on the dyke

to chase the cob webs away

Feeling Blessed

by the love of those around me.

So far 

45

is the cats meow!

Love and Light

exhale.....

I did not know what to title this post

so I started it as I physically did...

with an exhale.

an exhale of release and contentment

an exhale indicating

that work has been happening

within

and without

The image above represents how I have been feeling

these days

some-what naked, raw and vulnerable

and yet

all with in the comfort of

Love, Familiarity, and Beauty.

This month in SouLodge

we have been journeying with Owl...

whom I hold dear

because of this story

For me Owl is a reflection of my Self

She has vision in the dark.

She consumes only what she needs,

from the rodents and night crawlers

she feasts on,

and expels what she does not.

She is a Shadow Stalker

a Keeper of the Night

Silent in her Wisdom

(still working on this one)

Knowing the importance of Going Within

to those dark places of our psyche

to set ourselves free...

So this months Soul-Work has been revealing

and hard.

Facing those thing with in myself

that are not so pretty~

the rodents of my soul...

so to speak.

Not facing them in with shame

but facing them in love and acceptance

realizing what they have to teach me

and also challenging me to let go

of the addictions

the obsessions

the distractions

that keep me from my soul purpose.

Moving me towards the freedom to express

my soul truth

my heart words

my Self.

I have watched myself consume my fears

and spit out the pellets

of what I no longer wish to carry

Bringing up those "pellets" stung 

as they scrapped up my throat...

they even cause sadness.

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France

And at the same time

they gave Freedom and Hope.

My wings have hardened my lovelies

and I am ready to fly

I know this only happens

by going deep

there is no other way

but to trust in Spirit fully

and go where one is called...

not forced

but called gently

by the exhale

of

The One

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I am also remembering...

when this lovely family stopped by 

on their way home to New Zealand, 

from China, last year.

What a special time it was...

ironically

our visit ended with this

I can still here Mark (and the kids)

laughing in the back

when the owl pooped lol

good times...

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one last thing today

my lovelies

We had our Seeds of Love and Hope 6th annual

Fundraising Banquet last Friday

and we raised

(drum roll please)

over $100,000.00 for our centre

on Nativity Hill

in Medellin, Colombia.

AWESOME!

I plan to be going again in March

this time with my 18 year old niece : )

another grand adventure I am sure.

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Well that is where things are at

my lovelies.

This Life is a Beautiful Mystery

Today

as with everyday

 I am grateful

for all that it offers me.

Love and Light

ps Happy Thanksgiving to all my American Lovelies

Wordless Wednesday...

"I was meant to be

a warrior..."

Love and Light

Lest We Forget...

Today in Canada is Remembrance Day

A Day when we remember all those who have given

life, limb and mind to protect the notion of Freedom.

Though I do not believe in the politics war

I honour ALL who serve

and all who believe in fighting for their rights

and the rights of others.

I grieve with all those

whose loved ones never came home

will not come home.

I grieve the pain of those who do.

The horrors they now live with

The shredded hearts they house

The empty souls they have become

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No one wins in war.

Only those who sit "above" us common folk

investing and conspiring

to further their kindgom

and their wealth

To those

who would sacrifice others

for the "greater good"

I say

with righteous anger in my voice

"God be with your Souls..."

and in the stillness

of my heart

and the fullness of my soul

as tears stream down my face

I wisper the words

of my teacher Jesus:

"Forgive them...

for they know not what they do"

Love and Light

I am She...

I am She

the one who lives out loud

the one who lives for stillness

I am She

the one who pours out

the one who wants to be poured into

I am She

Fierce Maiden of the Night

not afraid of the darkness

for I know the treasures lie there

within the folds of the things that scare me

I am a tear

an exhale

a shout

a whisper

I am complicated

easy

simple

confusing

I am loud

soft

gentle

rough

I am

the sun

the moon

I wear the stars in my hair

and I dance with the mermaids in the sea

Wolf is my elder guide and companion

Grandmother Bear nurtures and comforts me

Eagle gives me strength and knowing

while Panther

stalks the shadows

reminding me of who I am

winking at me in the dark

and when I look at my face

I see Owl and Her Sacred Wisdom

I see what can't be seen

I know death

and am not afraid...

There has been but one thing

that scares me

not

to

be

heard

 

This has been my biggest fear

one I no longer will carry

along with so many things

I have dropped along the wayside

to be naked

and unafraid

I am She

naked

exposed

unsure

willing

I am She

Walker of the Woods

Servant to the Mountains

Keeper of the Night Lantern

Dancer of the Sea

I am She

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Who are you my lovelies?

Love and Light

inspired by my soul-friend and sister of the wood

Cathy AJ Hardy

and her divinely beautiful/heart touching/soul igniting new CD

I am She 

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Animal Medicine Calender found here