Love and Light: Mondays Offering...Endure

Monday, 13 May 2013

Mondays Offering...Endure

It was Mothers Day yesterday...

I would love to report a beautiful story

but that would not be the truth.

The ebb and flow felt like a wild river

with fast flowing rapids

while the occasional peaceful pool

waited to hold me close at the earth's shore.

This morning I read this beautiful, heartfelt post

and it was exactly what I needed to read

it allowed the grief and regret

to rise the top and be acknowledged.

It gave me a word to help find my focus

Endure

On Saturday I received the sad news

that one of my mom's has been diagnoised

with a rare form of blood cancer

only 23 cases in NorthAmerica

That on the heels of being out for dinner with a girlfriend

on Monday and speaking with her

about her diagnosis

of cancer.

She

a mama of two

a wife and a daughter

to a mama who lives with her.

Two very dear women in my life

two kinds of journeys

two kinds of fights

I will be what it is

they need me to be.

and in this grief

of what is

I can and will
Endure

so they can do the same.

We had a luncheon here yesterday

My mom

My oldest with his dad

my husband

my youngest

The youngest was grumpy

and out of sorts

due to two late nights

and the oldest

well

the oldest lives in his own world right now

and yesterday

yesterday I lost my rooting

I had a hard time holding on to the steady of my resolve

I felt bashed around between hard rocks

as cold water tossed me about

my head hurt

my heart sank

yesterday I did not feel my own strength

it was lost to me.

But in the dawn of this new day

I realize

I see

and I remember

my strength once again

and slowly today

I will work through my regret

and feel my roots again.

Endure.

All was not lost

there was the peaceful pools

there was love felt

thoughts of friends from afar

danced in my heart this weekend

Fondness and memories

Thank you friend

I love you.

A marriage strong

love deep

an appreciation of one another

consideration

friendship

a unity of steadfast love

and commitment

Thank you husband

I love you

A night at a best friends

years of roads traveled

making together the most comfortable thing

laughter

sharing

planning

Sisters of the Heart

Thank you friend

I love you

A gathering of Sisters
always feeding the Soul
grounding ones psyche
Thank you my Sisters of Light
I love you

A little voice
calling from the bedroom

mama I am sorry

mama please

mama will you make eggs in the morning?

mama will you forgive me

mama I love you

yes baby

I know you are sorry

go to sleep now, you are tired

yes baby

I will make eggs in the morning

Of course I forgive you

you are just tired

go to sleep now

I love you

Endure

my lovelies

Endure

as only we, as women, can.

now I am off to make some eggs.....

Love and Light

27 comments:

nyssa13 May 2013 at 07:34
holding you and the women in your life with such challenges ahead, in my heart. you will endure of that I have no doubt. xoxo
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Amy13 May 2013 at 09:26
Cat, I don't know what it is lately when you write..but I cry every time. Thankyou for this safe haven this morning... Such incredibly hard news to find out loved ones are sick...and scary sick.. lots of fear attached to cancer. that book I have been talking about.. if you feel drawn to it, I want to highly recommend it. Anita Moorjani.. Dying to be Me. So many amazing truths she shares... great big gorgeous nuggets of wealth and truth..about sickness.. about life... about living.

Loves to you today. Amy
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Arlana13 May 2013 at 09:50
Before endure/endurance meant walking through something difficult, keep moving, keep plodding along. But now I can see endurance as something more. There is still life, love and beauty to be felt as we endure. Its not just about getting through. I see this as I read your words and watch how you live your life. Thanks for your encouragement and example my friend!
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Widge14 May 2013 at 01:46
Awww friend that is some bad news :(
Much love to you and those mummas xx
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Ashley Lauren Weber14 May 2013 at 14:32
Keep strong, hold tight, anchor in any pool of happiness.
So many thoughts and love to your mother.
A hug for you.

You can do this.

xox
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My Earth Walk Journey14 May 2013 at 20:26
You are a fiercely enduring spirit. Sorry for your heart ache, good energy and prayer sent your way.
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prairiegirl15 May 2013 at 06:19
Endure. The word that must work. I hope it works. For I too, am going through a similar challenge with a loved one who was diagnosed.
It seems its all around us, Cat, this shitty shitty cancer!
You're one beautiful mama, wife, sister, friend. I send you hugs from afar, a knowing smile and lotsa love & light, calmness, sunshine and owls.
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POTMA'S ON A MISSION15 May 2013 at 08:35
Awww - my friend. Sometimes life is just not fair is it?? We can face such trials and feel so much uncertainty. I hear ya friend! Thinking of you...Suey
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mandy l. smith15 May 2013 at 10:33
So very profound. Endure. Everyone has something or someone that they have to endure for and you pick yourself up and do it. Hugs to you beautiful one, you will indeed endure and continue to flow with the energy of the Universe. xoxo
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foxysue15 May 2013 at 12:22
As you say 'peaceful pools of friendship' mean so much when your endurance is put to the test. I have been so grateful when I have felt 'knocked about among the rocks', to have felt the love and understanding here with the sisters.

Always feel the connection from oversees, the oneness of spirit,
love, light and big hugs to you Cat. x
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Gail15 May 2013 at 17:22
Ah, that kind of news does make the heart heavy. So thankful for the gift of resting in Jesus and thankful that He wants to carry our burdens.
You are such an INCREDIBLE mother. I have seen that with my own eyes. You radiate love, even through tough stuff. And your boys know it.
Glad that you got the cards. A bit of love and encouragement.
You are a light.
Love xx
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Kmarie15 May 2013 at 17:59
I'm so sorry to hear about your friends. You have really been surrounded this year... I hope that there are more moments of respite and rest because you are in the midst of so much pain. I think warrior ladies like you blessed with wisdom often are.
I'm glad that in the end your little man saw what he needed to see... A beautiful mother to love.
Loving you today
Love
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Saelok16 May 2013 at 20:36
Endure, as You adapt to the new flow and the new window. Cancer comes so sudden, like a window thrown open and the cold wind hits the face. Hard to navigate. Strength & Love to You & Yours in this Time.
My Mother's Day was a train-wreck, in which I realized no matter my frustration, sadness & rage I could not change the tracks of the Day. In the nightfall it settled. My photographer friend Nicholas came to my door out of the blue late at night and sat with my Family. I somehow also made eggs as promised to my Wee Ones in the morning.
Reading Your words had me smiling so at that. Please know You are in my thoughts. All the Love to You & Yours.
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Your voice is welcome here, your connection appreciated. Love and Light

quotes that resonate...

"The world will know and understand me someday. but if that day does not arrive, it does not greatly matter. I shall have opened the way for other women." ~George Sands

"I have a new command for you. As I have loved you, so you must love others. "~Jesus

"You don't have a soul. You are a Soul...you have a heart." ~C.S. Lewis

"Humankind has not woven the web of Life. We are but one thread within it. Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves. all things are bound together. all things connected." ~Chief Seattle, 1854

If ever there comes a time when the women of the world come together purely and simply for the benefit of mankind, it will be a force such as the world has never known."~ Matthew Arnold

“Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.
Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many.
Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books.
Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.
Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.
But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.”~ Buddha

"The world will be saved by the Western woman....Some people will call me a feminist...but we need more effort to promote basic human values-human compassion, human affection. And in that respect, females have more sensitivity for others' pain and suffering." ~Dalai Lama

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France

Out beyond ideas of wrong-doing and right-doing, there is a feild. I'll meet you there. ~Rumi

"Those who seem to know more truth than you simply reflect the part of you that has forgotten. They are your touchstones to remember." ~Alan Cohen

"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another;unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, resent, and the future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations." ~Anais Nin

"Process is more important than outcome. when the outcome drives the process we will only ever go to where we've already been. If process drives outcome we may not know where we're going, but we will know we want to be there." ~ Bruce Mau

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Monday, 13 May 2013

Mondays Offering...Endure

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