Love and Light: tonight...

Wednesday, 6 March 2013

tonight...

I just came back from a night time

MRI appointment with my mom
I realized tonight that I am now the daughter

of an actively aging parent.

Of course I realize we are all aging...

but a corner has been turned...

I saw it tonight in her eyes,

her unsteady walk,

her uncertainty,

I saw it.
A new kind of life is starting for her and I.....

I felt a need to place it here

as I swim in the emotions

of this change

I had to honour it

give it voice

give it word

give it a place

thank you for being here

my lovelies

love and light

9 comments:

Widge7 March 2013 at 02:46
Don't know what else to say but hey, love you girl. Lets chat soon xx
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nyssa7 March 2013 at 05:26
I realized the same thing when my mom was in the hospital. It came as a shock really. Becoming the matriarch in so many ways. The cycles of life happen slowly but at the same time seem so quick. We almost need a new pair of eyes, seeing things differently and embracing the differences. I'm still not at the point of embracing the fact that my parents are older. It comes as a shock over and over as medical things pop up. It's a very emotional thing and for me brings a lot of uncertainty and having to face things I just don't want to face but it's life. There is no choice but to rise up and do what needs to be done when it needs doing. Much love to you and you move through all the emotions xoxo
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Anonymous7 March 2013 at 07:09
You know this is beautiful....I adore you! This is so well written with optimism and love and gentleness and truth and respect - all those qualities so important to your mama and qualities she has instilled in you!
Both my parents have crossed over. Get as much as you can out of these next few years...peace & love!
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Kmarie7 March 2013 at 08:53
Touching...with an ache of hardship and a deepening of season. You are someone who has taught me a lot about seasons. I do not know what this is like yet, and In a way I am relieved the generations in my family are so young (my grandma is 67... and it is tough enough watching her age...) In a way it makes me savour my age- I just am not ready but so many of my friends are in this stage. You are a beautiful soul and this tranistion is one of the toughest- that and loosing a mother. My friend just lost hers quite young and it is so hard to watch and be there... Yet the beauty in her right now and the sweet mellowing of grief also has some moments that enrich...I do not know what to say here but thank you for sharing!
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Amy7 March 2013 at 17:00
((((big big hug)))) from over here in CO... brave heart. xo
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Anonymous7 March 2013 at 20:35
Hey woman - just wrote you the longest reply on my blog - should've just emailed you, but I went on and on and on .......lol - grab a cup of tea when you have time and go read it - thanks!!!
you're awesome!
peace
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PaisleyJade8 March 2013 at 01:11
All my love Cat - a path we are all going to have to walk at some point. Xoxo
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prairiegirl8 March 2013 at 08:40
I'm with my mother right now, visiting her in Cali.
I could have written that same piece.
Change. Patience. Love. We are daughters of beautiful women.
Honor. Honor. Honor. Love You. xxoo
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Arlana9 March 2013 at 22:42
Your mom is a lovely woman who is blessed with a lovely daughter to walk this journey with her. You will know what to do.
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quotes that resonate...

"The world will know and understand me someday. but if that day does not arrive, it does not greatly matter. I shall have opened the way for other women." ~George Sands

"I have a new command for you. As I have loved you, so you must love others. "~Jesus

"You don't have a soul. You are a Soul...you have a heart." ~C.S. Lewis

"Humankind has not woven the web of Life. We are but one thread within it. Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves. all things are bound together. all things connected." ~Chief Seattle, 1854

If ever there comes a time when the women of the world come together purely and simply for the benefit of mankind, it will be a force such as the world has never known."~ Matthew Arnold

“Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.
Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many.
Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books.
Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.
Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.
But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.”~ Buddha

"The world will be saved by the Western woman....Some people will call me a feminist...but we need more effort to promote basic human values-human compassion, human affection. And in that respect, females have more sensitivity for others' pain and suffering." ~Dalai Lama

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France

Out beyond ideas of wrong-doing and right-doing, there is a feild. I'll meet you there. ~Rumi

"Those who seem to know more truth than you simply reflect the part of you that has forgotten. They are your touchstones to remember." ~Alan Cohen

"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another;unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, resent, and the future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations." ~Anais Nin

"Process is more important than outcome. when the outcome drives the process we will only ever go to where we've already been. If process drives outcome we may not know where we're going, but we will know we want to be there." ~ Bruce Mau

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Wednesday, 6 March 2013

tonight...

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