Nov. 2,2011 marked 12 years since my dad succumb to his 4th and final battle with cancer.
Ours was a complicated relationship...not always easy
In amongst the memories of childhood freedom there intertwined moments of uncertainty and fear.
But people grow and hearts soften.
The journey of the last 12 years have done that to me...
changed me and softened my heart
Lesson after lesson
Gift after gift
Layer after layer
Till I was left exposed, and naked.
Atonement = Amends
And so after 12 years
12 beautiful, life giving years
I found myself last Saturday morning
at The Garden of Atonement...to make amends.
I came with coffee, blanket, journal and a dozen roses....
...best of all I came with the forgiving, loving heart of a daughter who misses her dad
I could have never known how it looked
Until I invited it in...
It was nothing I could have imagined
in my limiting flesh
As everything God...it was quiet and simple
As simple as saying~
I am willing...
I am willing to forgive
Love an Light