The Three Signs before Christmas...

The Three Signs

It was a few days before Christmas,

when the signs came my way

I had not asked for them

And I was not expecting them.

They were indeed

an unexpected gift

The First Sign:

I was at Costco picking up some prints.

I go there often and

know the photo shop staff quite well

A young guy is there…maybe late 20’s early 30’s

English accent and I have not seen him before

He steps up to serve me and all is business as usual…

until the end

He looks at me and pauses…

then he asks me if I am spiritual…

There is a moment of hesitation as I find this a peculiar question

the hesitation quickly turns into a smirk as this has happened to me before

and I am curious as to why he is asking…

“yes”

I say with a big smile on my face.

He asks me if he can share something with me.

I say, again, “yes!”

He proceeded to tell me that he sees a big tree….old….

with strong deep roots.

He goes on to say that in 2016 this tree is going to bare much fruit

He says to me,

“all you have been working towards will prosper this coming year.”

I thanked him.

 A slight bow of gratitude and knowing is shared between us

And then I left,

sat in my vehicle

and cried.

The Second Sign:

 This one happened at Winners…the same day

I had to pick up some last minute gifts.

The store is packed but they have all 11 cash registers going

so the line-up is moving quickly.

It was in this line up I experienced an “interesting” exchange

with a very intense, negative woman.

The story is not important

What was important was the familiar buttons her aggressive behaviour

pushed in me

I would say, very clearly and decisively, that she was of the bullying sort.

I watched myself as I did not react but instead

I paused and felt what was rising within me

a very familiar feeling

one that as a child took me over and into intense and sometimes

blinding fear.

I said to myself … “Feel it…sink and breathe into it…it is only a feeling”

I actually allowed it to come up and over my body

as I stood there with a smile on my face…

After this pause within myself,

as she continued on her rant,

I looked directly at her and quietly and calmly

said to her what I needed to say

and moved on.

I felt all the feelings

even the trembling in my belly

But it did not matter

It was not mine to take on or mine to make right

I moved on and left her in her cloud of negativity

as I basked in yet another Divine Sign

I left the store with a huge smile on my face

got in my car

and laughed out loud.

The Third Sign:

…the last one

took place at my home

As a Christmas gift to ourselves we canvased

three of our prints to hang in the living room…

they were the prints I was picking up early at Costco.

Three prints to replace the one.

As we took down the eagle print

there

petrified against the wall

perfectly intact with wings spread

was a beautiful moth.

Now Moth has played an important part in my self love healing

It was Moth who told me some years back

 that I would never understand her

or the part of her within me

 until I stopped longing to be the butterfly.

This was a huge lesson for me.

That I would be wise

to learn about and accept all parts of myself equally

and that, even in what I could not see as beautiful,

there was indeed beauty.

It felt to me,

like this offering was not only a reminder

but a declaration in that I was doing just that…

learning to love all the parts of me

even those parts that

do not seem beautiful to me.

This was an amazing day for me…

I felt seen and loved by Spirit.

I felt The Creator watching over me and blessing me

I felt valued.

These signs…these blessings

helped me face a not so easy Christmas

they helped me walk with ease

one hand holding grief

one hand holding love.

What kinds of miracles 
have you been experiencing?

Love
and Light...
and a Happy and Blessed New Year
xoxoxox

Monday Offering...Creators Beauty

Today is the holiest of days

and

You are the most precious of God's Children...

There is nothing you need to fix

There is nothing you need to do

Other than 

BE

And sink into the miracles

That every moment brings.

Love and Light my Lovelies
I love you all
 

Mondays Offering...Miracles and Gifts

I have realized that some of the stories

I have shared from my pilgimage to Colombia

have not been the easiest to read

I do not share them to bring dismay

or a heavy heart,

as much as to give a voice

to those who don't have one.

I feel it is time to bring these stories

to a close.

I am missing the use of this space being used

for "daily bread"

not only for you my lovelies

but also for my own heart and soul.

I continue to work on my book

which will hold the treasures of my pilgrimage

to Colombia, and my hope is

 that if you are interested in reading further

that you purchase one of these

when it comes to completion.

 *

Steven and friend

A couple weeks back I wrote about my dear boy

Steven

This past week I received some news about him.

News that pierced my heart, but yet

I was not surprised by.

A few weeks back Steven got into a serious altracation

with him mom's boyfriend.

The boyfriend was beating on Gladys, Steven's mother,

and Steven intervened

This turned the boyfriends abuse from Steven's mom

to Steven

and he was severely beaten.

Steven then went out

got a gun

and had it in his mind to kill the boyfriend.

 This story found it's way to our center

where Karin and Vivianna convinced Steven to give up the gun and the plan of murder.

What did come to be was Steven did make himself heard

as he took a group of friends and beat up the boyfriend

who then left the home and 

so far

has not been heard from.

15 years old

just a boy 

and yet

 making these kinds of life choices.

Hope is not lost

That he had a "place of reason" at the center

That he had women who cared and whom he trusted

That he had somewhere to go to take his greif

this is the Hope

this is the Miracle

Without the center there.....

the worst would most likely have happened

and his life

his precious young life

would have been changed forever.

our warrioress and her niece

The gift of the center continues to unfold

as one of our girls 

11 years old

came running down from the mountain top

for sactuary

Someone who had been brought into her home

had tried to be sexually inappropriate with her.

She knew where to go

and she did!

Bless her little warrioress heart!

Miracles

Where would she have gone?

Who would have told her, her rights?

"No one has a right to touch you or behave towards you in a way that makes you feel uncomfortable.

Your body is yours and your alone."

It is as simple as that

knowing God given rights...

these children

and all children who live

in the bowels of poverty

do not

know their rights.

I feel it is up to us

to tell them.

*

(Danielle and me)

When we go down to Medellin

we always attend the church in which this all began.

Church was something I was brought up in

but do not traditionally partake of any longer.

 But after a week of going deep

into the lives and stories of those on the hill

I was happy to gather in this Holy Place.

It was what my stretched and aching spirit needed.

I drenched myself in the music, the singing, the powerful words being shared...

and felt the ever abiding Divine Love that holds us all.

We each spoke

and as always there was a time

for those who gathered, to come and lay hands

on us, blessing us, praying prayers for us, loving on us.

At this time a young girl who had spoke earlier joined us.

her name was Daniella

She was part of an outreach youth group 

and was going into another city to do some innercity work

When she has spoke she has asked for finacial support to make this trip happen.

She has commited to go, but had not yet raised the funds

she was in full trust that it would come together....

she was leaving the next day.

Before we went to church that day I brought some of

the money you had so graciously given.

I was hoping to find a place to put it.

When she spoke

I knew I would give her a donation....

but was not sure how much to give

When we were called up to be prayed for

we all stood in a semi circle

arms around each other

Daniella came up and stood beside me

and with head bowed I said to God

how much?

how much do I give?

A number came clearly

$300

As we sat down I went over to her

and past her the money, which was bundled up

I let her know about all of you

and how this money had come to be.

She was very grateful

We hugged

and that was that....

or so I thought

I sat back down as the service went on

(church services in Colombia go on for hours!!)

After a period of time I felt compelled

to look back at her

and to my surprise she was sobbing

I went over to her and put my arms around her

which only seemed to make her cry all the more.

You see

the amount I/We gave her

was the EXACT amount that she needed....

*

Another thing I was able to do 

with your amazing help

was to put together gift bags for the women

who work day in and day out

at our center

These bags are filled with love and light

appealing to the feminine in each of us.

I was even able to put some money

in each of their new leather wallets purses

because of you

I was able to spoil those ladies!

There is such a joy to giving

such a gift in that gesture

Thank you for assisting me

in making that happen

Truly

I could not have done it with out you.

So I think this concludes my stories from the hill

well...

at least in this space

Thank you for being an important part of this journey

you touched many lives

especially mine

my lovlies

especially mine

Love and Light

 (more stories found here)